The Hangover
I woke up with the haze and emotions evoked only by a hangover.
Friday night happy hour went into overtime, and I was going to pay the price well into my cherished Saturday.
Why did I drink so much? The days following my DUI, I was physically ill by the mere thought of alcohol. As days passed, I began taking a temperature and testing my limits of sobriety. I had drank a couple of times during the past week, but only when out with friends. Last night’s outing proved that I was medicating my stress… something I didn’t want to do during this vulnerable time.
My arrest was far more emotional than I had ever imagined, and facing criminal charges was too much to bear. I know I’m an emotional wreck. I’m scattered, unfocused and distracted. I need to slow down.
I enjoy being sober. I enjoy the focus and productivity… and clarity.
I need to learn how to go out and have fun without feeling this need to numb or calm myself by drinking.
People arrested for DUI surely go through a period of assessing their drinking habits and making changes where needed.. or not. I feel guilty for drinking at all. As I know some people go for months, or … ever… without touching alcohol. I want to be reasonable with my response … but drinking too much is not reasonable, or healthy.